ARE YOU REAL?

(C)JULIETA CASABUENA FACTO MOFFATT-Oct. 18, 2010

at the time you asked me to be your friend
i am not to sure whether i take per your words
after few minutes of quick brain searching, yes or no
i clicked the 'confirmed now' button we became friends.

reasons wasn't confirmed until why it was a quick decision
for i don't want to lost that very chance of knowing you
yet i am not sure now if i did the right thing or not
for i sometimes question your integrity and are you real?

even i tried no to be uncertain about your true self
but there is this nagging feelings of doubts and this and that
about you i do still have question remain unanswered by you
maybe from your point of view is of no importance to response.

you are real in my own thoughts and in dreams and in other ways
but my heart is saying no, something you are not telling me true
my heart says you have various identities in net and in person
whatever your reasons are, hope it is giving you true happiness.

often we do believe that we are smart than that of other people
but in truth we are as ignorant and uncertainty like the rest
funny it may seem but we can't get away from real messy earth
the reality of life is we have no control whatsoever about life.

until you can make me believe one hundred percent that you are real
i will be in doubts and still be questioning your integrity and valour
for that is the only way i can convience myself that you are not a con
in the world of internet connection, convince me well, convince me so.

remember it would only take a little error so you can be in trouble
are you game to be discovered in shame if you are not that person as such
you portray yourself as a kind loving gentle person, but are you really?
i still believe you, and well believe you until i am ready to run and hide.

event in our life is just like a passing wind some good and some are not
like friends that come and goes, some seasoned with times and some don't
but even the unseasoned friends they still have values like the seasoned ones
if you are one of the unseasoned ones, i still love you my very dear friend.

after all i am not that perfect like the rest of the human race of creations
the differences between you and i are just the spices, sugar and honey of life
my heart is telling me you are not real or are just simply a person of thrill
i hope you will find that honesty back into your life so my heart can tell me so.

loving you as a geniune friend is all i can promise to you, just when we begin
the friendship with foundation of trust and kindness in our hearts, but then...
my heart started picking up bad vibes about you, that you are not the real you
yes, you are not the real you, let me believe that YOU ARE REAL...UNTIL THEN
MY HEART WILL KEEP ME DOUBTING ABOUT YOU...WHO ARE YOU ARE YOU REAL?

tell me if you....

(c)julieta casabuena facto moffatt-oct.3, 2010

tell me if you....
care for me right now...for no one knows
what is on the other end of the street
and if i leave you...now....
can you be sure that i will see you again?

tell me if you....
love me right now....for no one knows on earth
that it might be the last time for you to tell me
and if i move away from you, will you be happy?
can you be sure that i will be loving you still?

tell me if you...
must and judge me if you must, but the only way
i can tell you that love is the most precious feelings
we can have in our lifetime and beyond and nothing more
if you lost me right now will you shed a tear for me?

tell me if you....
shed a tear for me is it because you loved me?
or just another show on earth and you the leading actor
will it be a tear of losing me or just another show?
if you do care, love me right now don't wait for a day.

tell me if you...
do love me, tell me now....
for you know that i love you, i love you forever
you and only you can fathom that feelings i have for you
but please don't wait until it is too late......

tell me if you... love me...NOW!

FROGS VOICES

(C)JULIETA CASABUENA FACTO MOFFATT-SEPT.29, 2010

this afternoon we had our first good rain in Darwin
the backyard is flooding....wind blowing...palms swaying
the plants are all rejoicing for the most awaited rain
a quick heavy one and it only lasted as it comes......

from early seven o'clock in the evening..i can hear
frogs voices echoing....just outside my bedroom window
as the night processes, frogs in concerto louder and louder
but i don't mind it...i love their voices...it kills the boredom.

thanks for a good rain...it did soaked up the ground only just a bit
but yet, one afternoon of not watering the garden is just great
another rainy day they said for tomorrow...well, lets hope for the best
we all know, darwin weather is so unpredictable, like us who belong here.

right now, i can't stop giggling as i listen to the frogs mocking sounds
calling for more rain i suppose....i believe....high and lows still going
wondering if i can even had a good decent sleep later on.....but i don't care
for we do need a good rain like this afternoon...so the golden brown of summer
will become the greenleaves of springs......new life creation!...

FROGS VOICES IS ANOTHER SIGN OF NEW LIFE BEGINNING....THEY ARE REJOICING FOR THE RAIN
.....AFTER HIBERNATING IN SUMMERTIME....THEY ARE BACK TO THE LIVING WORLD!

I can't think of a title

Ended Before it Started

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - September 24, 2010

I can't think of a title.... what to write....I need inspiration(s) so to stimulate my brain cells.
Since last week, I am in limbo. What is the ending of my no beginning journey into reality
that don't have an origin of where my feelings from.

Feelings of the uncertainty but in so many ways, I know where my roots are and where I am
going for the very moment...because I know I am here in my room...tapping this laptop as if
the time is forever.

I have mixed emotions from late yesterday afternoon...waiting outside the shop for our bus
to come:
'Well, I am missing you that much, but I don't know what to do. I am that afraid to ask of
your where about....but GOD IS SO GREAT AND WONDERFUL. I am feeling so teary, then
a gentleman named B came out from your shop....walked towards me with a big smile...what a smile...

'Hello, darling Julieta, how are you? he said. 'I am fine, thank you.' I lied.

"I saw you the other day talking to a man...I am sure your heart pumping hard, like this.' B said as he put his left hand under his shirt and tap his chest.

'Which one? I can't remember. I didn't talk to anyone. There is only man, my heart will go the pump crazily as you did.' I replied without thinking.

'Who? D? B said with emphasized on your name, smiling at me sweetly.

'Yes.' I said proudly. Then I realized I let YOU OUT OF THE BAG.

'He was been very very sick, Julieta. Tomorrow he won't be here either. I don't know when he is
going back to work.' B feeding me with your situation and his kind thoughtfulness ended my whole day misery. I am sad to know that you are sick.

'B, well you tell him, I miss him.' I said as I walk with B towards your shop.

B stopped and looked into my eyes and said with seriousness, 'I WILL, I WILL TELL HIM.'

THOUGHT it was the end of my worries about you being sick....I was wrong. I became worst as the night progresses. I am thinking what you are doing? Are you okay...as you are living on your own
like me. I can't wait for the night to become day so I can go to Casuarina so to ask B, if he can kindly give me your home address.

The day came....cut the story short....I saw B....but he is so very loyal and business like person very professional. I know at the very beginning that he won't do it. I really salute B, for protecting your privacy. I know B was in between two hard rocks. My thought was I am going to send you a get well soon card....but it doesn't matter anymore now....You are in my prayers.

B again fell in me news about you. B didn't see you last night...he said that all you did is sending text messages to Mr. J stating that 'STILL SICK, MAYBE ANTIBIOTICS WILL DO THE TRICK AND THAT YOU WILL BE WORKING ON MONDAY.'

B had to divert our conversations to him talking to his mother in Adelaide...regarding swine flu, for the benefits of C....thanks B for your consideration...I know you don't want to put me on C's scrutiny...and foremost not to let her know that we are talking about you.

D, I know from the bottom of my heart, B is our friend! A friend we can rely on

A Life

A life that is....

A LIFE THAT IS...

A life that is i am aspiring for since i am a kid...is a life that is full of love and respect wherever i go whomever i meet.

Aspiration that of Peace and Harmony on every part of the world. But this is only can be achieved if Greed and the Power of the Guns vanishes on the face of the earth. As long as these two aspects of all wrong reasons the peace we are looking for would not materialize.

Another thing is the CAPITALISM -which is the root of all evils ---sure we can't live without material things in life, but how much does one can have?

Sure, i am one of the many that love material things, yes will be a big hypocrite if I tell you that I don't want more, more than I need for the day. Like buying shoes, bags and lingerie. You can ask me too, how many pair of shoes do I need for the day? Or bags? and Lingerie? I can't deny that I am my own worst enemy when it comes to materialism.

Greed, and the wants ...we often forget our principles in life. Once our green-eyes roams the shops of all the temptations we forget the compassion we have for the world. I won't deny too, that more often words of compassion's doesn't go with actions...

I am one of the many, THINKING BIG FOR THE BETTERMENT OF THE WORLD BUT DO LITTLE TO CHANGE IT. I AM MORE FOCUSED ONLY FOR MY NEXT OF KIN...AND ONLY SHARE LESS WITH OTHERS OUTSIDE MY SQUARE.

But even I would like to share more, it is a very IMPOSSIBLE TASK ON MY PART. I would like to help and share outside my square YET, I can't afford more than I can to spare.

Up to this day, I can't still comprehend how the adage come 'that we are all created equal.' For there are people in sufferings from the day they are born to the day they die. Especially children, mothers and all in the refugee camps and caught in wars in their own country. Sometimes, there were times i do question....for there are people never experience the sufferings of the people in poverty. WHY? I QUESTION.....PLEASE ENLIGHTEN ME ON THIS!

The POVERTY IS SO IMPOSSIBLE TO DESCRIBE. From dungeon of poverty, follows the unjust, the violence, the crimes of all sorts in order to survive.

I myself suffered injustices since the day I know what is to live in a poverty stricken situations for many years, as we grow up. Our sufferings is nothing compare to those who are in refugee camps. In reality, the poverty I called when we were growing up was a life that some in our village did envied for I and my siblings were born with electricity and that some of our neighbours until now don't have.

I learned the hard way....AND A LIFE THAT IS TODAY...MINE....MY LIFE THAT IS TODAY IS OF THE BEST...GOOD HEALTH AND BY THE GRACE OF THE GOD ABOVE.

WELL, YOU AND SOME WILL SAY THAT I AM CONTRADICTING MYSELF IN SOME OF MY WORDS....LIKE ...WHY? I QUESTION.....THE EQUALITY OF LIFE...

BUT WE ALL KNOW THAT LIFE IS A MYSTERY....SO RIGHT NOW ALL I CAN SAY AND WISH IS THE WORLD WOULD HAVE PEACE IN THE END.

LETS JOURNEY LIFE TOGETHER...PRAY....DO SOMETHING SO WE CAN END WORLD POVERTY. A LITTLE BIT OF SHARING IS BETTER THAT NOTHING.

LOVE, CARE AND PEACE TO ALL.
(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-September 19,2010.

I LOVE THE WAY YOU WALK

(C)julieta casabuena facto moffatt-sept.12, 2010

i love the way you walk

you can follow me anytime

i love the way you walk

follow me @filipinahalo-halo.blogspot.com.

i love the way you walk

the way you sway your hips

every steps you make

the way you follow me anywhere.

i love the way you walk

the way you sing and work

i love the way you play music

the way you entertained me.

i love the way you walk

as you played 'whatever you want'

i danced and sing with your music

as you read my note 'I want to be with you tonight.'

i love the way you walk

into my heart and into my life

i love the way you sing aloud

as you look into my eyes.

i love the way you walk

towards me, while pretending you didn't see me

then one day, you walk by right next to me

we looked into each other's eyes and.....

i love the way you walk

you keep on walking holding my look

without knowing what's ahead of you

opps! i laughed...you bumped into a trolley.

i love the way you walk, then stopped

saying sorry to the couple you've just bumped into

i didn't laughed with your misery, you know that

i just remembered, one man those years ago in a farm..

he,

almost

fall

over

in an

open well

in the rice

paddock

in a hurry to see me.....

i am humbled for in my presence you lost control of your feet.....but still....

I LOVE YOU THE WAY YOU WALK.

xxx000xxx

I love the way You walk

At this very Moment

at this very moment, i know i am blessed for i am safe. at this very moment i am praying for each and everyone that are in danger, and those who are in badtimes of their lives.

my heart goes to all that are in trouble, the victim of floods, the gas explosion and the earthquake, the landslides and others that suffered on all unexpected events due to nature and man's fault. but no one is to be blamed for everything that happens were all beyond our control as human beings, even one will disagree with me opinion/views.

things on earth are all temporary even our lives, we have no control on anything in our lives, even we believe otherwise. each and every problems/trials that comes our way, some we get over it, will be able to solve it but we can't control events in our lives. what is happening now is the cycle of life, what's happening now already happened before.

at this very moment, i am hoping that love and peace will prevail in each and everyone's heart so that we can have 'utopia' on earth.

at this very moment, i am holding you in my heart that you will keep that courage in your heart and keep on loving every person that comes your way....show what LOVE CAN DO.

DON'T BE DISCOURAGE!

I LOVE YOU ALL.

AT THIS VERY MOMENT AND BEYOND.......

(C)julieta casabuena facto moffatt-sept.12, 2010

darwin, australia

BURNING WATER FOREVER

BURNING WATER FOREVER

(C)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-September 3, 2010

Loving you is like BURNING WATER FOREVER

You are no perfect....you have so many flaws like

me....like the rest of us, the people on this earth;

Loving you is like BURNING WATER FOREVER

In my dream I can move on with life so easy

but in reality I can't, even with all your faults;

Loving you is like BURNING WATER FOREVER

I.....can't just let go of you even IF I WANTED TO

for you are right inside the paradigm of my brain;

Loving you is like BURNING WATER FOREVER

when are you going to grow up and start living?

don't be afraid to express your deepest emotion.

for loving you is like BURNING WATER FOREVER

since that day you've asked me for who I am.......I

started BURNING WATER...........UP TO NOW,

AND

I WILL KEEP

BURNING WATER UNTIL ALL THE WATER 'S BURNT

THAT IS HOW I LOVE YOU.......

MY LOVE FOR YOU IS LIKE BURNING WATER FOREVER.

Stop Pretending

Stop Pretending

(c)julieta casabuena facto moffatt - august 30,2010

you pretend you didn't see me

even though you're standing right next to me

you pretend you don't love me

even though your heart says so

that you love me, that you love me so.

be true to yourself, start living, fall in love again

acknowledge your feelings, don't be afraid

just love me, love me, love me for who i am, as i love you

for being...you.

there is life, there is life, there is life for you and me

there is love, there is love, there is love for you and me.

life...love...life....love...for you and me.

xxxxxwritten for mr. singer and guitar manxxxxx

CAN I STEP ON YOUR TOES?

CAN I STEP ON YOUR TOES?

(c)julieta casabuena facto moffatt - august 27, 2010

another day of impulse buying of CD

in a place where you are working

as we went in, toe tapping music playing

a new aspects of your music domain.

i pretend, you are not around

we are playing 'cat and mouse'

you pretend you didn't see me

even though your eyes right on me.

bill, came over so i ask him instead

while you're watching me from a distance

but in the end, bill always turned me on you

so to be served by you....is this planned or ...?

whatever i don't mind...at all, my friend for i love you so

you never failed me in whatever i wanted to have

as usual i am feeling diamond...for i am with you

for just being near to each other i know you love it too.

the other day, as we went into your music domain

in an instant you played 'whatever you want' by status quo

laurie and i starting dancing...as you watched me just a few feet away

i came over to you...CD's on your hand....the moment i talk to you....

you drop all the CD's in your hand....without delay and attended me

my heart is singing so i am sure your heart too...but yet .....

you still have that coldness in you...why? why are you so afraid?

stop pretending, start living and fall in love again.....

this morning, as we stand side by side

as you try to find the paper/note clip i wanted

i can't help myself and my witting brain that you may laugh

i look down towards your feet and said 'CAN I STEP ON YOUR TOES?'

'NO.' your cute reply..... you just made me love you more and more

'WHY NOT?' my smarty reply......we look each other for awhile.....

you twitched your lips....i am romancing you in my head..................

'BECAUSE IT WILL HURT.' you said red face....as i walked away.

you followed me.....for short period of time.....the time and space is ours

laurie and bill were insight but not in existence in our time and space shared

you get into the counter.....i anticipated that you will become cold again to me

but i was so wrong...you are warmth and kind to me even i am a bit non-sense witty!

i am glad we are still friend.....!My Mr. Dragon Man....you are handsome, if only you know how to smile.' xxxxxx00000xxxxx

Brokenhearted Me

BROKENHEARTED ME

(C)julieta casabuena facto moffatt - august 26, 2010

when love is not right for two people

the relationship won't work whatsoever

when love is not right for two people

everything is chaos and trouble forever.

when love is not right for two people

nothing will help to make the two works

when love is not right for two people at start

nothing will, for it is not right in the beginning.

as in my case,

i created a monster

that only me

can let it go away

but...the trouble is.....i get burnt on the fire.....

the monster fire that i created.....

and now

i am

a BROKENHEARTED WOMAN AGAIN....

*************************************

IF

IF

(C)julieta casabuena facto moffatt - august 20, 2010

if only there is total freedom of speech

there would be no reason for me to fear

of any consequences in the end, but

as we all know....nothing is perfect in this world.

we can be of no difference to anyone else

we may think otherwise, yet let us open our

eyes...to reality nothing is perfect at the end of the day.

if only i could tell you my true feelings of love for you

there would be no reason for me to fear......yes truly

for i can share my heart and the singing of the same

songs of love and joy...but you are so afraid to show

your real self...stop pretending and just love me

love me as your heart says so...love me for who i am

AS I LOVE YOU FOR JUST BEING YOU...

.....IF.....

I like to cry, yet I can't

I like to cry, yet I can't

(c)julieta Casabuena facto moffatt-august 15, 2010

why? why, tears is hard to come by?

when I needed it the most,

my heart is aching, it is drowning with pain

why? i like to cry, yet i can't.

is it because the pain is too much

and in that my mind is stronger than my emotions

it is stopping my tears to fall for the moment tears starts falling

i have no power in me to stop crying until no more tears to cry.

is this a good sign? I don't think so. I don't know the reason too

why do people I love is always the very person hurts me so much

i keep on forgiving, they keep on deceiving me, why? why?

i forgive, you deceived me all the time, how can that be you tell me you love me.

deception is what i don't like most...and you know it so well

I like to cry, yet i can't....

I know why?

because i love you...i have no choice but to forgive and keep on loving you

"my little sister jesusa"

the life that is

the life that is

(c)Julieta Casabuena facto Moffatt-August 16,2010

the life that is, is what we always worried about. before we go to bed we think of what is tomorrow. we can't just help doing it. on my part even i always said, it is all in the hands of our LORD but i am telling you, i am of no difference from any other human race. worry is one of our nature....because in a way we still not have the total capacity in surrendering our worries to the LORD we still want to be the master of our destiny, yet we don't have the mastery...only GOD HAS.

if only we can totally stop worrying and surrender everything to our LORD. THEN ......THE....LIFE...THAT...IS....WE WORRIED ABOUT WILL BE THE LIFE THAT IS, IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND WONDERFUL!

XXXXOOOXXXX

23 years and a day

23 years and a day

(c)julieta casabuena facto moffatt-August 14. 2010

As if it was only yesterday....I am now 23 years and a day here in Australia. From the moment I arrived in Australia everything in my life changed for the better. I am blessed in every possible way BY OUR GOD.

Of course there were trials and chaos as well but the best outsmarted the bad ones. Australia is my home now, but I am not going to forget my origin....Philippines. My country of origin is the reason why I am here in Australia because my parents are filipinos...but I am very thankful with love and affections to my late husband, Charles Richard Moffatt for bringing me over to where I am now.

Charles given me the love that giveth everything. He accepted me and my family without reserved. He is still loved and respected by the whole family back home. Actually he wanted to be buried back in the Philippines. And one day...i will fulfill his wishes...right now I still have his ashes with me in our home.

Australia, I thank you for giving me the life that is full of respect and compassion. I won't exchange for another place. I LOVE AUSTRALIA AND MY FELLOW AUSTRALIANS.

Australians thought me a lot of how to be a true blue Australians....they love life, easy going life and love holidays and anything that is life....with respect.....where else would I want to be?

Sure, we are not perfect but...we are ALMOST.... we have our flaws like others but I am still happy the way things are.

23 years and a day.....for me it is only 23 sleeps....but that is only in dreams....my hair is graying now and before I had only one spectacles now I need two....so it is telling me something, isn't it?

but a friend and I been talking that age doesn't matter....we have to keep on living to the fullest and it can only achieve with LOVE.

I HAVE TO BREAK ALL THE RULES - because of LOVE....AND anyone can do it too, as long as you don't hurt anybody.

IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE TELL ME BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE....DON'T WAIT for you may miss the chance of telling them that you love them.

I DID IT LAST WEDNESDAY and my HONESTY DID PAID OFF FOR I AM FREE....I AM FREE TO LOVE HIM OPENLY....NO PRETENCE! I GOT MY LIFE BACK, I AM BACK TO MY OLD SELF 'THE HAPPY GO LUCKY, JULIETA' PRAISE THE LORD! AMEN!!!!!!!

ANGEL MY FRIEND

ANGEL MY FRIEND

(C)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-August 14, 2010

A-nother day of being alive and chatting with a loving friend

N-othing can surpass the love connection between us today

G-athered we are by the Internet connections in time and space

E-ven the distance between us is that so far away we are on top

L-oving hearts travels fast through the tappings of laptop's key.

M-oments of time we spoken words of wisdom is now written in INK

Y-ou are a very special friend and I hope our friendship last a lifetime.

F-riendship is a word that covers everything, acceptance of one self

R-eminding us that in this world we can only live one day at a time

I-n order to be happy, let us acknowledge our shortcomings and all

E-ncourage every person you meet to live life to the best possible way

D-ay to day we are here and blue horizon is just 28 miles away...........

Realization

REALIZATION

(C)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-August 12, 2010

Every minute of my life is the realization of Truth. That nothing is that important in my Life but Honesty and love. If I didn't acknowledged this yesterday morning, maybe right now I am a nervous wreck on worries of no consequences at all in Truth.

Realization in Truth sets me free this yesterday afternoon and I hope it will be a reminder of me that in the future I can face any challenge and not fear the process of reaching the victory. Yes, I have to believe that it is always victory in the end of the day...but in Truth...I know that there is also some failures.

Everyday that I see the sunshine is the REALIZATION of my LIFE AND IN THE NIGHT AS I CLOSED MY EYES IT IS THE REMINDER OF ME THAT I AM IN THE HANDS OF THE LORD AND I GIVE ALL MY TRUST IN HIM....to wake me into another day of tomorrow for a NEW LIFE...YES...EVERYDAY WE ARE BORN AGAIN BECAUSE OF THE LOVE OF GOD.

I PRAISE GOD AND GIVE THANKS AS OFTEN AS I CAN!

XXXX0000XXXX

HONESTY = FREEDOM

HONESTY = FREEDOM

(C)julieta casabuena facto moffatt - august 11, 2010

HONESTY IS WHAT I VALUE MOST IN LIFE. I am trying my best to be as honest as I can everyday of my life foremost with myself so I can carried it over to each and every individual I meet during the day.

I believe that if we are not honest to our own self how can we be honest to others. In my life as I am now there were times that I had to lies/lied (white lies is still dishonesty) in order not to hurt other people's feelings, but now I realized that in some aspects I did helped them to became not so nice and not responsible person in the end.

Lesson learned: HONESTY = FREEDOM.

GOOD WIND

GOOD WIND

(c)Julieta Casabuena FactoMoffatt-August 4, 2010

Some people can be so cruel. They feign their emotions to set us up through their sweet words of nothing, and then bring us down without fail.

Yet, life must go on even we are drowning from pain and sufferings. It is not right that one person had the right to make one unhappy. it is not right that one person can take other feelings for granted.

As a woman, I learned that in every circumstances that happened in my life, each and every one of them they are just a drop of sweat out of my pore. Those who have hurt me think that they can pull me down into oblivion of sadness, then I prove them wrong.

Life is so wonderful and beautiful for me spend and waste any second of my life to worry things that are already blown away by the wind and whatever maybe that good wind that carried away my bad days and trials that SAME good wind will come back to me to bring GOOD TIDINGS.

Today is another perfect day, because I believe IN JESUS CHRIST, MY LIVING GOD!

When?

When?

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-Aug. 4, 2010

When was the last time you have a good laugh

When was the last time you have a good talk

When was the last time you give thanks

TO OUR LORD ABOVE?

When was the last time you tell someone you care

When was the last time you tell your parents you love them

When was the last time you give them a hug and kisses

When was the last time you show your appreciation?

When I started questioning all the things above

When I realized that I am included in all the 'When's."

When I thought that I am different from the rest

When I thought that........I am no better that the rest.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

When?

Concentrating

CONCENTRATING

on what? Julieta!

of being single, free and happy!!!!!!

Everything In Our Life Has Reasons

(C)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt -August 1, 2010

Many a day I questioned to what happened
The good, the bad and the unexplained
Whether I've got the answers of my questions
Right or wrong it is the answers of the reasons.

I pinched myself a many a day
Why do I have a brain and everything
For it has reasons in us for living
The best I hope I can love you MORE.

I begin and ends my day and night
Thankfulness in you, MY LORD
For without YOU, I am nothing
I am blessed of all the REASONS.

You give the gift of SMILE
I give it away without question
I know every SMILE I radiate
HAS REASON. It is from YOU MY LORD.

WITH ALL MY LIFE AND ALL MY LOVE
I THANK YOU AND PRAISES YOU MY LORD
KEEP US FROM HARM AND LET THERE BE PEACE
ONLY YOU LORD KNOWS.....that...

EVERYTHING IN OUR LIFE HAS REASON(S).

=AMEN=

Today is Our Future a Decade Ago

2:38p.m. I went into a cafe for a tucker

I've expected that it would be full of diners

I went in, there you are, I am nervy stunned

Tranquility of space and magic moment of time

It is you and I amongst empty tables and chairs.

Today is Our Future A Decade Ago planned by GOD.

If you tell me, that it is only a mere coincidence

I don't believe in any coincidence now, how could I?

For it is too much too many things in my life happened

Too much for me to comprehend whatsoever, help me

For what I believe now is that,

Today is my Future that I am worried about a Decade Ago.

I am not going to question on what is right and what is wrong

Everything has origin, meaning and ending for whatever reason

No one amongst us, may you be rich or poor or in between or below

We have to go down first before we can climb up the ladder to heaven

So why we have TO worry for the future for,

Today is our Future that we were worried about a Decade Ago.

"THE LORD IS MAGNIFICENT FOR HE BROUGHT US TOGETHER AGAIN TODAY"

Perfection

Perfection,
who wants perfection
if there is a 99% in your hand
99% of happiness and all
than that of Perfection that can make you sad.

Perfection,
for me is death
so who wants no laughter and all
i rather be alive with all the joy of trials
than that to be six feet under the ground
or ashes inside the urn, the true PERFECTION...
IS DEATH.....SO BE HAPPY AND BE THANKFUL
EVERYDAY TO OUR CREATOR, JESUS CHRIST.
(C)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-July 23,2010

Dare ends into Personal Obsession, You.

hurray! I've done it. i've finished the book of my 30 days journey - in the beginning it was a 'Dare' but the tide turned its course and i am in between the 'Yes and No.'

supposed to be YOUR life...then the unpredictable YOU....left me in the rain...dripping.......but still hoping.....but you said a definite "NO.'

i can't let that little snag to stop me writing....all the dramas and events now are all in INK. i am sure that this is meant to be.

235 pages of my love letters to YOU ---ENTITTLED:

'YOU ARE HANDSOME, IF ONLY YOU KNOW HOW TO SMILE'

LIFE

L I F E
(C)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-July 15, 2010

LIFE IS YOU AND I
IN EVERY MEANING OF THE WORD
FOR WE ARE CREATED EQUAL
EVEN YOU BELIEVE OTHERWISE.
-END-


HUGS AND KISSES
(C)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-July 15, 2010

HELLO ......HUGS.....HELLO.........HUGS
UNIQUE WORDS OF FRIENDSHIP FROM YOU AND ME
GOODNESS OF THE TASTE STAYS IN OUR MOUTH
SOMEHOW EVEN WE PARTED OUR WAYS...FOREVER!

AND IF BY CHANCE YOU LOST YOUR WAY AGAIN THIS FAR
NEVER FORGET YOU ARE A FRIEND AND ALWAYS WELCOME
DOWN INTO THE DEEPEST COMPARTMENT OF MY HEART.

KISS...KISS....KISS...KISSES....
IT IS THE SIZZLING REACTION OF EMOTION
SO SOOTHING, SO RELAXING, SO COMFORTING
SMOOCH ON THE FACE....SMOOCH ON THE LIPS
EXTREMELY HAS DIFFERENT EFFECT AND MEANING
SPECIAL FRIEND....SPECIAL LOVE THEY ARE DIFFERENT.
-END-

Verses of the Day

Verses of the Day
(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-July 12, 2010

Fear is only courage in esreveR
Cold is only Hot in esreveR.
NOW was the future, by the second it will be the past.

Negative thoughts is Positive Thoughts Hangs Upside Down.
Only a line ( - dash or a straight slash /) seperates between negative and positive thoughts.

There is no greater history than our own life story.
The good, the bad, the ugly and in between
They are the make-up of our own Life.

Everything in my life is on loan
Even my own life!

Don't analyze, just do it
Or you will have brain sublime paralitic
Paralyzed by Analysis.

Poverty ends....slavery ends
Greed and power in existence
No way peace be on earth.
Verses of the Day
(c) Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt
July 12, 2010

Every Second is a Learning Process

I am no perfect, nor you and everybody
But the process of learning doesn't end
Just because I made mistakes, go off way
It doesn't give you the right to judged me.

In this world of computer and internet/web
Nothing is sacred anymore, even we believe otherwise
If only I knew in the beginning what is the effect to me
I rather writes, writes, writes until I can see Cobwebs.

Cobwebs hanging now on the ceiling, what a pity, i can see
I am sitting, stretching, back pain, the chatting syndrome
It is craziness, the technology brings, electronic friends...
I missed playing marbles with real, true genuine friends.

Back home, in the hacienda where I really belong, I belong!
Missing the sugarcane leaves singing in summertime nights
The joy of running around in the field of golden summer, of my home
Hacienda San Roque, Philippines, my home sweet home, my love belong!
(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-July 10, 2010

Glass window between you and I

I stood outside the glass window
counting all mute music instruments
their silence is as cold as you
it is a deafening loneliness and pain.

I hate to think of all the music instruments
that are just on display and not in use
what a waste of time and space of idleness
i am imagining what would be if they all makes sounds.

echoes of music is not in the moment of time
i look straight, there you are in front of me
trying to get into space to examine the price
an electric guitar, silence....hangs on the wall.

I knocked on the glass window, you turned around
You twitched your lips, that is all you can managed
I am surprised when you popped in front of me
You are surprised too, but I doubt if you will conceed

Silently, I am reaching out for you, to touch you
To embrace you, to comfort you and just to be with you
Action speaks louder than words, that is you! Hide if you must
But we both know you feel just what I am trying to HIDE IN MASK.

It is only a glass window between you and I
We have to break that glass window to feel each other
We have to crack the glass window between you and I
In order to know the true meaning of friendship forever.

A glass window or a panel whatever you may call it
It is the only hindrance for us to unite in the moment of time
If only I can go through that glass window, if only I could, If!
But the glass window is really is you...

I AM AFRAID TO TOUCH YOU
FOR YOU ARE SO FRAGILE
I WANT TO BREAK YOUR COLDNESS
BUT I DON'T WANT EITHER
FOR IF BREAK THE GLASS WINDOW,
=YOU=
I WILL LOSS YOU FOREVER......

I RATHER WATCH YOU, ADMIRE YOU
FROM THE OUTSIDE GLASS WINDOW
REACHING OUT SILENTLY FOR YOU
FROM THE OUTSIDE GLASS WINDOW

THAN TO LOSS YOU, FOREVER.

DAVID, YOU ARE A GLASS WINDOW
MY GLASS WINDOW, YOU ARE.
(C)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-July 9, 2010

For you my friend -Dvid Nealson

I remember the day
when you asked me who i am
i looked into your cold, cold blue eyes
they say our eyes, are the mirror of our soul
i can see thru your cold, cold blue eyes
strange loneliness in you inside.

are you brokenhearted like me(2x)
is it the reason why you seldom smile
is it the reason why you don't know how to smile sometime?
i can feel strange, frightening coldness is you
but i often wondered is the one in front of me
is it the real you?
but i often wondred is the one in front of me
is it the real you?

remember, pretending will take us to nowhere
i've been pretending myself,
that nothing wrong in my life
but if you look into my eyes
you will see what's inside my heart
i am as brokenhearted like you(2x)

brokented people we are (2x)
we need a broken heart to mend our brokens hearts
(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-July 8, 2010

When night becomes day

When night becomes day
(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-July 2010


Turn, toss, kicking, sheets pulling
Toes catching edge of the donna
Scratching, sighing, drinking aqua
Eyes wide shut - awake dreaming.

Which time?

Racing against time. Which time? Are we racing against time of the clock that hangs on every dining room, bedroom, kitchen or even in our laundry wall? It's not hard to beat one or two of them, all we had to do is take the battery out and 'KABOOMMMMMM' we beat the time....i wonder

Racing against time. Climate change we all know including the most intelligent scientist ofnour present world knows that no one can stop the climate change. We know that it would be a tremendous devastation to every corner of the world. It would affect us human beings, animals and all living organism on this earth. Our earth would be different in the future for what is is today.

I cannot imagine our lives would be, if there were any left at the time the climate change at its core. We all know that each and everyone of us, dead or alive we are all GUILTY of polluting this wonderful world. We over indulged and still indulging on all material things (I am no exception on this). The clothes we are wearing, shoes and all the tiny bits and pieces (dust collectors) that hangs and sits on every space in our little homes or mansions.

How many houses do you own? How many people lives in your mansion? How much food you throw away everyday? How many pens and pencils you have that never been used until it is time for them to kiss the end of the rubbish bin? How many kind of sauces you have in your fridge that since you opened it, you never once miss. How many fridge, freezer you've got in your house? I can go on and on and on asking questions of 'how many' and the list is endless. I can hear you....you calling me 'nonsense'. Remember 'nonsense is the beginning of Sense!

I am afraid to say but surely we really racing against time of Climate Change. The damaged is done and still going in the ozone layer, even America and the rest of the powerful nations of this world i doubt if they can stop the future harmful effect to our planet. The ocean temperature is rising more than we can chew....weather as well....

The production of goods over rides the demands. Excessive production of everything is enormous. I saw truckloads of bread thrown out into a rubbish bin from one of the shopping centre in my locality. ON THE OTHER END OF THE WORLD THERE ARE HUNGRY PEOPLE DON'T HAVE EVEN A CRUST TO EAT.

We human beings changed with time. Time is our ULTIMATE CHALLENGER IN LIFE. We cannot beat the time and its effect. Time is also our Life. We breathe time, without time we are dead. Our lives evolve with the time, not vice-versa.

We are born with time, we have time to go to work, time to sleep, to laugh, time to cry and as the seasons time is what we need to live in this world. THE QUESTION IS, HOW MUCH TIME WE HAVE LEFT? We need time to reverse the effect of the damaged we had done to our planet. We need time to calculate how far we can go faster than time we already lost in order to combat the climate change that we created for our own downfall.

Do you really beliee that the leaders of powerful nations are doing right and have the right protocol in order to solve this global climate problems. I am not sure. All I see in TV, they hugged each other and shaking hands in front of the press. Talking in front of the media inside a lavish hotel, mansion or palaces. Sitting in a comfortable chair inside an expensive hotel and mansion or palaces all smiles to the camera and before the end of the day all of them all in front pages in all newspaper around the world....Bittersweet....or BS!

G20 definitely cannot solve the climate change, only GOD can. Whether we like it or not, everything that is happening now, already happens before. I am not trying to force an issue or my opinion here, but let us slice the cake, you've got the half and i've got the other half, now the question 'does the slicing of the cake diminished its value?'

I may sound radical. You may I am on the other side of the road. The truth is which side of the road I belong it doesn't matter, we all shared the same TIME. Time we don't have enough in order to solve the problem we are facing. I can hear you again....of course I am not a pessimistic person, I am just plain REALIST.

REGARDLESS which part of the world we are, the time never changed. 24 hours we all shared all the way in a day.

HOW FAST ONE CAN BEAT THE TIME? Finding an answer is like looking into a HOLE OF EMPTINESS. It is like stoning the glass house and believing it won't crush into pieces. Like planting a mango tree and believe that it would produce banana.

The funny side of the equation of the G20 leaders talking that we have to change our ways so that we can slow down the rapid climate change. What ways we need to change? G20 leaders forget that they are WORST CONTRIBUTING FACTORS of climate change, they are using individual JUMBO JETS. Can we call them hypocrites? I leave it to you to decide. I do wonder.

How about you, do you make time to wonder about the WORD? GOD created the time. TIME NEVER GROW OLD, we human every minute grow old and dying too, when we don't know, ONLY TIME WILL TELL.

We have to acknowledge that who we are today and where we are going tomorrow, we are going with time not racing against time. Time will never leave earth, we will.

Time is precious gift we can share with our loved ones. It will make our loved ones happy. It would be great while we are with our families and friends we have no time to hurry. Time is like the day we born there is no turning back.

The more we challenge the time the more helpless we would be. It is challenging GOD. That is why the clock always turn clockwise, because TIME IS WISER THAN US.

Racing against time regardless of what is one's trying to achieve it is like climbing the Mount Everest walking backwards barefooted. It is like drinking poison and thinking miracle can save your life. It is like diving into an empty swimming pool hoping that as you leap from the diving board water would sprang out so to hold you up so that your head won't hit the bottom of the pool....Ouchhhhhhhhhhh!

RACING AGAINST TIME FOR ME IS LIKE CHASING THE HORIZON. The more i tried to reach the horizon, the farther it goes away from me. I've been walking for years to reach that blue horizon, I still have 28 miles to tackle so to touch that horizon.

WHEN THERE IS NO MORE 28 MIILES BETWEEN THE BLUE HORIZON AND ME , then and only then I can say there is such thing called RACING AGAINST TIME.....BUT....then how can I tell you.....BY THE TIME I AM TOUCHING THE BLUE HORIZON....MY TIME ON EARTH ENDED.........................................................>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.

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COPYRIGHT (C) JULIETA CASABUENA FACTO MOFFATT - July 6, 2010

Racing Against TIME

RUN, if you must! As fast as you could! Imagine what would be one's rate so one could race against time. In reality one need not be a genius to know that racing against time is an impossible task for us human being. No human being could race against time...ONLY GOD.

AFTER, decades of changes in the world technology, there is still little we can do about the climate change. Going back to old ways are we all willing to do it? Alienate our self from the modernized world

Droplets of Love

Droplets of Love
(c)julieta casabuena facto moffatt-2010

Droplets of love, Droplets of care
Is all I need to live in this world.

Joy in my heart just to see you smile
The way you've looked at me
I knew then you've loved me
Tender love, tender care is all I need from you
So I can live in this world, just to love and care for you.

In this world of earthly things
Nothing goes beyond love
Only the love, only the love
We can take to that far away land.

Once we cross the thin fine line
Between heaven and earth
Only our love, only our love
Will lingers in the heart of our loved ones.

Only our love, Only our love.
-end-

New Found Friend by the Kiosk

In our lives met people everyday, they come and go. they touches our imaginations and how we see life ahead of us, but in reality there is no important time that 'now'.

'NOW' is my future yesterday, and yesterday was my now of the other day. Yesterday was my 56th birthday....and as my friend Laurie and I walking towards Sandy's Bar for my birthday lunch party, we happened to stopped by at a kiosk in front of Spendless Shoe Store. The kiosk has some words written just below the counter so I have to bend down so to touch the word 'made in germany'....see the kiosk is for 'shammy' demonstration and selling.

'Made in Germany' reminds me of a very special friend named 'prince gerasib'. Then Laurie started talking to the gentleman over the counter. As I straightened up, the handsome guy over the counter said 'oh, I need a hug.' Do you? I replied. Yes, he answered with a sweet smile.

"I will give you one." I said wittingly. Without thinking that he really meant what he said about that he need a hug. Hearing my words he spread his arms what opened and so I have to give that hug to him. We came to the other end of the kiosk and we hugged and he kissed me on my cheeks and what a prince's way of doing it hold my right hand and kissed it as well. I am so humbly priviledged to this lovely great attitude of a young man. In him I felt the love of a son that I never had. His parent, especially his mum would be over the moon, of how loving and respectful his son is.

The name of the great young man, my new found friend, our new friend is Gary.....no...just joking....He is Brandon M.....(i have to ask him first if it is okay to put his real name, i will let you know....)

I am blessed meeting and knowing people, young people that has so much positive attitudes in them. They will be great leader of their generation. Last two weeks ago, I met Chad, a fourteen years old nice loving lad. Yesterday, Brandon M you made my big day a most memorable one. It made me realized that instant spontaneous kindness and love giving is the true meaning of HUMANITY.
What do I need plenty of money for? If I can have one second of kindness from a TOTAL STRANGER, nothing can surpass this in my moment of time on earth.
..................12:00 noon 2 July 2010- Listen to live music with brooke barnett she is good! 1:30 met Andrea - Brandon's girlfriend and she is as nice as him. They have golden heart. We talked as if we've known for some time. Andrea is from Argentina. Lovely cute girl.

2:55 I met Darren, my step-grandson and two great step-grandsons, Franky 6 and Sonny 5. On the way to Donut King to buy some treats for the kids, we had to pass Brandon M kiosk, as we came nearer I said to "Darren, come I will introduce you to my boyfriend.". Darren somewhat not sure what he is hearing.

We walk, then all of the sudden Brandon, saw me and still mic on he said 'hello Julieta, my love." It doesn't worry me at all. One filipina said behind me "Jule, you know that man in the kiosk?" "Yeah, he is my new boyfriend?" I responded with a giggle.

I stopped with th kids right in front of the kiosk and I introduced them to Brandon M and I could not want to be in any other place at that moment....the moment was just so electrifying for me, for lovely boys I love and have them at that moment of time and space....I can't ask for more.

WE CAN ONLY BE IN ONE PLACE AT A TIME....AND IF WE CAN SHARE THE GOODNESS OF LOVE, RESPECT AND KINDNESS TO EACH AND EVERYONE....A HANDSHAKE, A NOD
A HUG AND EVEN JUST A SIMPLE HELLO WITH A SMILE.......................................................

.....'OUR WORLD WILL BE A BETTER PLACE'
To Chad Troy Warneford and Brandon M.....two guys of different ages,we're not blood related but you touched my heart with love and respect. I wish you two the very best of everything in life.
(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt-July 2, 2010

My Life is like ,,Halo-Halo"

,,Halo-Halo'' is the sweet national delicacy of the Philippines. It is a combination of all tropical and western fruits whichever available in certain time of the year.

I like ,,halo-halo'' so much. It has the nicest sweetness flavour one can imagine. All fruits cut into bite size put into a bowl, add sweet red beans, Ka-ong, Nata-de-coco add shaved ice, then pour over either coconut mild or evaporated milk. (sugar-optional, but in my opinion you don't need sugar at all).

Yes, as per ingredients written....my life is really ....as it is. The sweetness is just right...no added sugar needed as long as I am alive and I can still SMILE AND ABLE TO RADIATE IT WITH LOVE I AM HAPPY!

LIFE is like a ,,halo-halo''. The sweetness doesn't stays forever. When there is sweetness we have TO remember there would be sourness, bitterness and acidness that we have to encounter as we travel our road towards the place of tomorrows.....which I always believe is the BLUE HORIZON....

Sometimes, trials are and were too hard to crackdown, it is like eating the ,ka-ong and the nata-de-coco' you have to chew it hard, have to hold it between your teeth ....this two ingredients they are like eel....slippery.....but it makes the dessert joyful to eat.

The ,halo-halo' represents myself....I am no perfect person. The ,halo-halo' can be as simple as you like and it can be elaborate as much as you like. As in the restaurant menu suggest ,Ordinary halo-Halo' or ,Special Halo-Halo'. Sometime I like to be special but I rather be an ordinary one, for it is easy to be an ordinary person....you don't need a bodyguard, no need for you to put up high fences around your place and most of all you don't to worry what other people says. If you are a special person all the worries of the world of materialism would be on your head, or actually it is the lasso that will hang you upside down.

Sure, being special it could be a good feeling too, but....I am just an ordinary person, with an ordinary wish for the world....and that is END OF WORLD POVERTY SO WE CAN HAVE PEACE ON EARTH.....THEN AND THEN WE CAN HAVE THE GREATEST PLACE ON EARTH AND THAT IS ,,UTOPIA ON EARTH''.......