JANUARY 1, 2013

(C) Copyright: Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt
Darwin, Australia   - January 1, 2013

Joy in my heart when I woke up
A sun shining, birds chirping and silence
Not a soul in the street can be seen
Until my mobile phone start laughing
At last everyone remembers me with a ring
Repeating 'Happy New Year' with glee
Yearning of my heart to be home one day!

1-  thing I am very thankful I wake up with TODAY!

2- I AM ALWAYS CARRY THE LORD IN MY HEART

0- OH!  It made me realized MY ORIGIN IS ZERO

1- One more thing I am blessed because the LORD GIVEN ME YOU

3- THREE THOUSAND FOLDS OF HEALTHY LIVING TO US ALL.

2012

(C) Copyright: Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - December 31, 2012
Darwin, Australia

In few hours, 2012 will say goodbye and we will be thinking the things we've done and haven't the change to do during the year....

Without doubt to all of us, the last twelve months will be a combination of good, bad and in between memories...good memories be remembered with joy, and some will bring bitterness in our hearts.  But I have learned for a long time ago that grudges is like a cancer...once you let it govern your from the start...it will drag you down up to your grave of unhappiness.

For me, I will leave 2012 as a chapter of love and forgiveness and giving more love to everyone without questions....Love should be given freely no price no conditions....FREE LOVE....WILL BRING FREE GOODWILL AND BLESSINGS.

If we cannot forgive, we cannot expect GOD WILL FORGIVE US EITHER.......

MY PRAYERS TO ALL LET US EMBRACE THE NEW YEAR 2013 AND YEARS TO COME WITH TRUE AND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE............

PEACE HOPE AND HAPPINESS WE WILL GAIN.

IN YOU

IN YOU

(c)copyright:Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt

Darwin, Australia -  December 20, 2012

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IN

YOU

I HAVE

FOUND

THE KIND

OF JOY AND

TRUE MEANING

OF WHAT IS ALL

FRIENDSHIP IS ABOUT

THE LOVE AND RESPECT

THE KINDNESS OF THE HEART

THAT MENDED MY BROKEN SOUL

THANK YOU FOR

LOVING ME.

FRIENDS

YOU

ARE

THE

BEST

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DEDICATED TO ALL MY GOOGLE+ FRIENDS AND FAMILY

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MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013.

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FOR YOU MY BELOVED

FOR YOU MY BELOVED
(c)Copyright:Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt

Darwin, Australia - December 17, 2012

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*for*

**you**

***my***

****beloved****

*****I do wish*****

******you all a very*****

*******wonderful, joyful*******

*****safe Christmas Season*****

and 

a

happy

Healthy

New

Year

"2013"                    

=with all my love to you all=

'MY REFLECTION'

My Life - Day by Day: My Life is like ,,Halo-Halo"

My Life - Day by Day: My Life is like ,,Halo-Halo": ,,Halo-Halo'' is the sweet national delicacy of the Philippines. It is a combination of all tropical and western fruits whichever available...

12-12-12

(c) Copyright - Julieta Casabuen Facto Moffatt - 12-12-12
Darwin, Australia

December 12, 2012 or 12-12-12 either way it is written it is the date of December twelve, two thousand and twelve....

Unusual or very rear we will ever be writing this date, for it will come to our lifetime but once like many other dates that would follow.

As I grow older with the world growing older, too many things I can't comprehend of why it happens and so forth...and the more the universe is getting older, the more I know nothing, the more I became smaller, the more I became so humbled and learning more to appreciate the beauty and the goodness of my Creator.

12-12-12, I came to realized that in anyway there are many children all over the world would have birthdays on this day...but it is so complicated though in my thinking...see I thought that is now 12-12-12 but then I realized it is only 11.48p.m. (Darwin, Australia time).

All I can say is that....in few minutes time it will be 12-12-12...........anyway..............

1 - is a whole number and to me it is the joy to write the start of new beginning.  1 - is my birthday as well but of the month of July.  1 - is an ace number.  1 - the number of our thinking....

2- is an even number means that our heart and mind coordinate with each other....it connects the good spirit inside of us to the outside world we live in and if our heart and mind are in-tuned...we are in-tuned with everything around us.
12+12+12 = 36 == whatever you do with the 12-12-12 = equals even numbers and it is infinite numbers meaning our world is of no ENDING...UNTIL the BEGINNING...COME TO TERMS WITH OUR CREATOR...

Yes, sure they are only numbers you may say, some will say...but we all begin from number zero and then 1 and so forth..........

12-12-12.........I am happy to think that I am the first one written something about this number in Blog....
the count down is going to happen soon...........
waiting...................10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1...........0

welcome 12-12-12-=====thank you LORD!

My Life - Day by Day: MOTHER DEAREST

My Life - Day by Day: MOTHER DEAREST: (C)Copyright Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - March 23, 2009 Darwin, Australia Song For My Dearest Mother - Teresita Pasco Casabuena Fac...

MOTHER DEAREST

(C)Copyright Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - March 23, 2009
Darwin, Australia

Song For My Dearest Mother - Teresita Pasco Casabuena Facto (March 16, 1926-April 25, 2007)

Mother dearest I need you
Mother dearest I am missing you
Everyday my heart is longing for you
How I wish you were near so I can touch you.

Your smile and your laughter I can't forget
I can see and hear you in every place
The birds singing as they build their nest up in the trees
Reminds me of your love and the care you've given me.

I am missing your tender touch, the warmth of your kisses
And the comfort of your loving embrace
When I am sick, when I am lost and when I am sad
The sound of the wind against the palm leaves
Reminds me of your sweet songs when you put me to sleep.

Mother dearest with love I am holding you in my heart
You are gone but your love still remains in my heart
I thank God for giving me you as my mother dearest
Thank you for giving me life, thank you for loving me
I thank you for who I am today, I am proud to be your child

And I love you forever, my mother dearest, I love you forever.

for you , OUR DEAREST MOTHER- TERESITA PASCO CASABUENA FACTO
ON YOUR 7TH YEAR DEATH ANNIVERSARY...NOTHING CHANGE...
LOVE STILL REMAINS IN OUR HEARTS...WE LOVE YOU MAMANG FOREVER.

I love you dearly

(c)Copyright Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - November 15, 2012

Darwin, Australia

Two years ago, we've met

In a corner music store where you work

You invited me out of nowhere

To stay with you for a month.

We shared the moment of wonders

Of being with one another's company

We created a friendship no one can explain

Every night you gave me hugs and  kisses on my cheeks.

We forget the whole world as we talked and laughed

Outside your porch as we watched beautiful sunsets

Over the horizon of that Arafura Sea of the Northern Territory

Where Nightcliff foreshore just a stone throw away from where we sat.

You took me under your wings and took care me of me very truly

But nothing last forever we both know that, thirty days is over

Your house-mate is coming back so time for me to go without doubt

You told me you hate that he is coming back, you wish he won't come back.

I asked you 'why, you don't want him to come back." what's your reason?

Because, darling when he return, you'll go and leave me without doubt

So what will happened with our friendship, when he is back? You asked more

We will still be friends, friends for life we said from the beginning, and it will stay.

Morning of my leaving, as usual I made our coffee while you are in the shower

As you sit down quietly beside me outside your porch, you hardly look at me

Sipping your coffee, in deep thought.....I wonder what's in your heart and mind

Am I the one you are thinking and what it is all about....???? Am I the one?????

Then in a flash, you stood up and went inside....

I sat quietly, motionless, brain stopped thinking

I am afraid to say a word....

Our coffee are now getting colder and cloudy!

The coldness was so frightening

I got up and went inside as well

There you are ready to go to work

You walked towards me.....wide arms...

Reaching for me...and then...

We embraced....

You kissed me on my cheeks and.said,

'REMEMBER ALWAYS, DARLING, I LOVE YOU DEARLY, YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME.'

(Our friendship is one of a kind...we both know where we stand.. We promised 'friends for life that morning)

The Night Is...

(c) Copyright: Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - November 7, 2012

Darwin, Australia

THE NIGHT IS LONGER

WHEN MY HEART IS CRYING OVER YOU

THE NIGHT IS COLDER 

WHEN I REALIZED YOU'RE JUST ANOTHER LIES OF LIFE

THE NIGHT IS OVER 

WHEN DREAMS, ILLUSIONS PASSES BY

THE NIGHT IS LONGER

THE NIGHT IS COLDER

THE NIGHT IS OVER

WHEN I REALIZED....

YOU'RE JUST ANOTHER PART....

OF MY BROKEN HEARTACHES LULLABY.

For Edmund

(c) Copyright: Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - October 17, 2012
Darwin, Australia

Perchance we've met over the Internet
Because of words from the brain ticking
The friendship started from the word 'ADDED YOU.'
 That was the beginning of the end of not knowing.

Perchance it was then as it is now, maybe
That a quick start is also the reason of quick end
Yet, I believe that once people met and had a talk
Remember each other has no space and no end.

How can I forget a friend whom given me seashells in my dream
How can I forget a friend whom so nice and proud father
A person whom touches the heart of many as the way he is
And so this ode is 'FOR EDMUND.' my friend.

Wishing you,
my friend....a WONDERFUL LIFE OF LIVING...

photo by:Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt

A wave of a Hand

(c) Copyright: Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - October 24, 2012
Darwin, Australia

Hot weather is here again, gosh it is HOT
My air-con running twenty-four seven
I have to get out from my house, its hot
My total being is on fire, I needed a shower.

Sweaty I went into the shower
Sweaty I get out from the shower
It is funny for how on earth I did that
Shower is of no use at this time of year.

10.00 a.m. I am out on way to the bus stop
Hop into the bus and oh! Blessed be...Aircon working
11.00 at Casuarina Shopping Square, sweating stop
Time for window shopping and genuine buying too.

Lunch 12.30 noon, take away again and over again
When will I learn my lesson?  But I am with a friend
This is my few take away this week, I pinch myself
Promise I won't do it for the rest of the month...I promise!

2.45 p.m. shopping in hand, my friend and I on the way home
My heart is aching for I am missing you all the moment of time
It was said for awhile that we are friends then we said goodbye
For sometime now, I keep avoiding you so not to say hello to you.

And today 2.47 p.m. all of the sudden there you are walking towards me
I was stunned, frozen and mesmerized of how the way you walk as ever
I can't deny anymore to myself, that in those passing days of not talking
I know then, you still love me.....as like the beginning....as I am to you...

AS YOU CAME NEARER CLOSER TO ME.....
YOUR SMILE IS OF THAT GENTLE ONE...
I ALWAYS KNEW.........
THEN....AN INCH BETWEEN US....

YOU WAVE YOUR HAND
AND SAID 'JULIETA.' HOW ARE YOU?
A WAVE OF A HAND AND A GENUINE SMILE
IS ALL I NEEDED THAT VERY MOMENT OF TIME.

A WAVE OF A HAND FROM YOU
IS THE PANACEA OF MY HEART'S DESIRE
OF LONGING OF THOSE ALL DAYS WE KNEW

A WAVE OF A HAND FROM YOU.....GOOD LOVE RETURNS!
A WAVE OF A HAND FROM YOU...IS LIKE DIAMOND IN MY HAND...LOVE RETURNS!
HOW CAN I FORGET YOU...FOR OUR BOND IS STILL IN MY HAND....

YOU

(C)Copyright Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - October 21, 2012

Darwin, Australia

You are the air that I breathe

You are the sun that give my sunshine

You are moon that lights my darkest night

You are the star that dazzles my eyes.......

You are the very best thing in my life

You are the reason why I am here

You are the guide of me becoming of Am I

You are the RAIN that makes me ALIVE.

You are the template of my entire life

You are the INK OF who I am

You are the writer of my very persona

You are the printer of all my mind's data.

You are the MOST POWERFUL INTERNET I COULD VISIT

You are the ONE that holds my very existence in this WORLD

You are the ONE THE BRINGS SMILES TO MY LIPS FROM MY HEART

YOU,....

YOU,.....WHO LOVES ME WITHOUT FAIL

YOU......WHO BELIEVES IN ME WITHOUT QUESTION

YOU.......WHO CARES FOR ME WITHOUT EXPECTING IN RETURN

YOU....    WHOM I BELIEVE AND ALL THAT I HAVE......

YOU ARE MY GOD...AND I CARRY YOU IN MY HEART

24/7 HOURS of my life

365 DAYS of my life

YOU ARE MY ENTIRE LIFE....

and I THANK YOU MY GOD....

Take me for who I am

(c)Copyright: Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - Ocotber 10, 2012
Darwin, Australia

The time of meeting is the beginning of knowing
A simple hello, with a handshake and smiles on our lips
Keeping the joy of friendship in our hearts is just beginning
Every hello was the beginning and goodbye is the ending.

My new found friend, I wish you the life full of love and joy
Every day I am here for you, If you need a friend to talk too.

For each and everyone of us need a friend to share our laughter
Or even in sadness we do need a friend that understand, I am one
Remember I am here, don't forget, don't hesitate, just call me!

Wherever you are from far away distance...we are near at hearts
Happiness I have since I've met you in Google+ and in my dreams
Over blue ocean, I fly underneath that clear blue sky to be in your arms.

I.......+ You =  Google+ Friends

Accept me for who I am
My friend I am not perfect but I love You with all my HEART!

Please, TAKE ME FOR WHO I AM...

AT OUR RESIDENCE, HINIGARAN, NEGROS OCCIDENTAL, PHILIPPINES
SOUTH SIDE OF OUR FRONT GARDEN FACING WEST
WALING-WALING ORCHID

My Life - Day by Day: Acceptance

My Life - Day by Day: Acceptance: (c)Copyright: Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt Darwin, Australia --October 2, 2012 When things in good shape, non of us need questionin...

Acceptance

(c)Copyright: Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt
Darwin, Australia --October 2, 2012

When things in good shape, non of us need questioning and reasoning why we are IN good shape and happy.  Everyone of us are in unison with spirit and mind.  No problems....nothing that can create chaos, can cause pain and suffering that will end us crying.  

But life is not all smooth sailing....not all cemented road...humps and bumps are all over the place...not all silence....there are few unwelcome sounds of guns and the killings....the peace is out of reach....even just for once since I was born and up to these day I never heard the so called TOTAL PEACE ON EARTH....

Christmas, Valentines, Lenten Season and all the so called special ONE day of celebration.....it still not doing  any perfect solution to all our earthly desire of greed and power.

Christmas...isn't it be the beginning of giving and sharing and loving to promote Peace On Earth...but truly there are some thousands if not millions of our fellow human being have nothing of basic needs.  But in developed countries all the lavish of material things that they don't even know what to do with them, until the next morning ends their fate in the garbage truck...  

Christmas time is now approaching and I am afraid what was the year after and before and after then and now it won't be of no difference...there are still millions of people living in refugee camps and in hunger.  Millions of people living in the street begging for mercy, millions of children no place to go.

Christmas they said that it is for families....but sad to say there are millions of older parents left unvisited for days, months, years and even until there dying days are totally forgotten....only to be remembered after they died...everyone will say 'to pay for their last respect to the dead.' Gosh what is the use....the dead person can't even hear, see or understand them...they're dead.....why not come when they're still alive and can see the smiles and appreciate your love...

Valentine's....hmmmmmmm everyone knows what is this meant....and I can't comprehend too...for me everyday is Valentine's Day... at night before we go to sleep we say to our love ones good night with a hug and a kiss, tell them that we love them and when we wake up in the we welcome the day of saying ...good morning, hug, kiss and tell them again we love them....for there is no other time, no better good time than that of the present moment!

Easter or Lenten the time to repent....but we do really?   I don't repent for that days only....I repent every time I realized that I made mistake, that I said something not nice to other people, when I've done something hurtful to others, when I am unfair to others, when I am in hypocrite in some ways...for me Lenten/Easter Season is of personal choice so as the rest of all the celebrations....for in truth almost of the so called One Day Special Celebrations including...mother's day, father's day and all the rest of the Days...that commercial institution can think of is just a farce........

FOR IN MY VIEWS....EVERY DAY IS A CELEBRATION OF ALL SEASONS OF MY HEART OUR HEART AND THAT IS LIFE AND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.

Seashells of Dreams

(c)Copyright: Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt
Darwin, Australia = September 22, 2012

The time has passed as you've travelled away
Words of promises never meant to kept
Like Seashells of Dreams drifting away from me
For you are always be a Dream never be a reality.

The joy has vanished when you've moved away
The silence of honesty is gone and cruelty around
If only my Seashells of Dreams I can hold in in my hands
To hear the songs from the oceans as the waves wash my hands.

The moment of realization only comes in the end of time
While the promises is still fresh and it said to be kept in heart
But in the world of mind...Seashells of Dreams is all I've got
In my dreaming you are still the joy of a friend that time can give.

The total aspiration I have for you my dearest friend far away
You can rest assure the one I am you've knew for just a short time
I am that one, never changed and always thinking of you at all time
For the happiness you've given me is nothing I can compare, no way!

BECAUSE YOU ARE ONE OF THE 'SEASHELLS OF DREAMS'
I AM HOLDING YOU IN MY HEART...NEVER TO BE FORGOTTEN!
THANK YOU FOR BRINGING ME SEASHELLS FROM THE SEA
FOR IT BECAME THE JOY THE PART OF MY .'SEASHELLS OF DREAMS.'

EVEN YOU ARE BROKEN YET................YOU ARE STILL AMONG THEM IN MY HANDS.........AND IN MY HEART YOU ARE STILL THE PERFECT ONE!...

World of my Own

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - September 15, 2012
Darwin, Australia

Whether I am in the crowd or I am alone
Only I can see what my heart tells me
Reason of understanding you may not know
Lovely things surrounds me in my own world
Dreaming of peaceful life among human beings.

Only if everyone of us do our share of kindness and tolerance
Freedom of religion and all can be achieved...UTOPIA ON EARTH.

Melody in my heart sings as I dream of peace on earth will come
Yearning from my heart, wishing the best things for everyone.

OH! World of my Own...while I am dreaming and wishing
Whenever I close my eyes I say a prayer to the LORD ABOVE
No more fightings and killings, for it is all waste of lives and time.

....World of my Own....Dreaming and Wishing....always smiling!

(sketched by my nephew Joemar Facto - an epitome of myself on my 58th birthday -July 1, 2012).

I am Afraid

(c)Copyright Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - September 5, 2012
Darwin, Australia

I am afraid
what might be
just when i heard
the word INSULIN
my heart beats faster
faster and faster
because of fear.

I am afraid
what might be
if I use Insulin again
I was bloated and can't walk
the last time they given me
Insulin it wasn't good result
if they do it again, I am in fear.

I am afraid
what might be
a month I was given
to consider if I would have it
for they say, they can't do nothing
but to put me back in Insulin
please, release me from fear.

I am afraid
what might be
can YOU give a time
a moment of advice
for I am too confused
give me a word of courage
so I can get over my FEAR!

Single Pink Hibiscus
(c) by: julieta casabuena facto moffatt - from our home garden in the Philippines

He is just another name

(c)Copyright Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - August 16, 2012
Darwin, Australia

There were few moments in my life that I thought I knew people that passes through my life.  By their sweet words I am mesmerized in every sense of the word.  I always thought that people are all like me, trusting to anyone that comes my way. INTERNET SOCIALIZING IS A SUCH TO UNDERSTAND, MY BRAIN BEEN IN ROCK IN ROLL.....

By now I know that, our world is not the same as it used to be.  The world and the way other people live is just another name of game to the core.  I am ashamed to say that honestly so many time I trusted people, and in the end I ended hurt by their dishonest way of living.  Yet, it doesn't bother me in whatsoever if they that's the way they want to live their life, it's their problem not mine.

Three days ago, I discovered that once a person is a thick-skinned will always be that one.  Sorry, if I am so brutally frank of my thinking,  but it is that so, I believe.

Once again, I met a guy, and HE IS JUST ANOTHER NAME, TO BE FORGOTTEN IN THE END.
YES.......



WHAT IF........

WOULD IT MADE A DIFFERENCE????????

Honest Living

Copyright (c) Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - August 10, 2012
Darwin, Australia

A month or so ago I was in the Philippines for a family reunion.  One morning I survey the surrounding and I've noticed at the back of our home there were few bamboo trees that are running wild.

So I decided to have it cut down.  My younger brother Jose Maria look for someone who can cut the bamboo trees, and how much would it cost me.

To cut the story short, he found a man to do the job.  For three days, he still clearing the bushes and gosh it was a 8 hours per day job.  I keep asking my brother for how long this man be doing the job for I am feeling sorry as too how little he is charging me. My brother said to me 'sister, you will never be a rich woman because you give away your money.'

With the helped of my brother he finished the job in 10 days time.  Time for payment...I give 50% more he was charging me.

He accepted the money with a big grin in his face as he said thank you, he counted the money and when he realize that it was more than what he asked for...he immediately handed back to me the money and said 'you've given me more than I asked for.'  "That's ok",  I said.  He shake his head...not accepting the extra money.

Until I told him that it is not an extra payment, the other money is for my appreciation of the job well done.

He can't thank me enough....which I am very embarrassed!

This is an epitome of a true FILIPINO VALUES THAT I AM PROUD TO SAY STILL EXISTING IN OUR PHILIPPINES.........I am proud to be a filipina born as proud as I am an Australian citizen!

A WOMAN

COPYRIGHT (C) Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt
Darwin, Australia - August 1, 2012


a WOMAN is the backbone of every home
like the MAN AS THE HEAD OF THE FAMILY
A WOMAN is a mother and foremost a wife
a mother full of love and understanding.


a WOMAN I am....no difference from other
can CRY when pain of trials comes to life
a WOMAN I am...not new to any sufferings
a WOMAN I am...I will never stop loving...


a WOMAN is often misunderstood by man (just my view)
yet what woman do often is too love much
a WOMAN is in between hard rocks of confusion
a WOMAN will always be a part of every man's life......


for A WOMAN.,

IS YOUR MOTHER
IS YOUR GRANDMOTHER
IS YOUR WIFE
IS THE MOTHER OF YOUR CHILDREN
IS YOUR DAUGHTER(S)
IS YOUR GRANDDAUGHTER(S)
IS YOUR SISTER(S)
IS YOUR NIECES AND AUNTS
IS YOUR FEMALE FRIENDS..................


SO, if you've been hurt of anyone of them....and the pain THEY INFLECTED is so intense and that made you CRY....forgive and the pain will go away.  


For we all do hurt each other one way or the other unintentionally......


I know I've hurt many people unintentionally....and also been hurt many times but I cannot bring myself to stop living and giving love.

CRYING FOR ME IS NATURE'S WAY OF CLEANSING MY INNERMOST FEELINGS!!!!!

Now and Then

Copyright (c) Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - July 21, 2012
Darwin, Australia


Now friendship created by internet or text messages
The laptop and mobile/cell phones are all our proxy friends
We only touch keys of both artificial creations to communicate
Never we can hug our friends to show our feelings and love.


The personal touched of hand-writing is now disappearing
Sadness only I could feel of how the simple way of life leaving
Changing in a rapid rate, I am drowning of so much e-gadgets
But I am hooked too on this Extreme Electronic Syndrome (ESS).


Then, there were only postal mails and telegrams hand delivered
That made us wait for a thousand time before we had it in our hands
Yet, it was worth the waiting for we can read it over and over and again
No power needed to read it either and we kept it forever in our drawers.


Then, I write every minute I had a spare time....spellings were good
Now, the brain is bit rusty so as the hand writing out practice not so good
Then and Now are perfect combinations the signs to futuristic time of life
Oh, dear!  I am afraid to think though, what would be the future of you and me!


Hope our friendship won't end as quickly as we know from the Internet or Google +
Sometimes I can't help myself of not thinking the possibilities morning comes I am deleted
For, Now ....it seems to some....friendship is only while you are in their 'Circles' of friends
Friendship through Internet/Google + is an Icon control, yet I believe there is HONESTY IN IT.


THEN AND NOW....DRAGONFLY COMES IN SEASON...SO AS OUR RELATIONSHIP......

                                                .....YOU AND I......
FRIENDSHIP FOR LIFE!   

Living Life

Copyright (c) Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt

Darwin, Australia - July 20,2012

If you happen to see me walking on the road, you can't tell straight away about my past life, my now life and more importantly my future life.

You may only judge me by the way I dressed up, of the way I walk or the way I talk.  But I can assure you will never had a chance to tell, that I am sad...because I am a great pretender.  I smile even my heart is hurting and broken in pieces....for smile is my weapon since.

I smile when I am lonely, I smile when I am sad and I smile, and I smile... for is the reason why I am living life.  Without a smile in a day it is like a death punishment...it is much better to have a smile with an empty stomach than with a full stomach from greed!

Living Life - is You!  You all people in my life, families and friends....without you life is none!

Happiness is not because you are living nicely....happiness to me is sharing what you have with all your heart.   Living Life - is living together in harmony, understanding the differences of opinions and beliefs and tolerance of the misfortune of others.

Living life is not perfect happiness...it is the combinations of pain and joy.   

Living life is you and I.  

We are not perfect but we have each other...what else can WE ASK FOR!

Two more sleeps

Copyright(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - June 5, 2012
Darwin, Australia

I am counting the time and days
Two more sleeps and I can't wait
To go home and be with my families
To the place where LOVE AWAIT.
        ONE....
TWO...
        MORE.....             SLEEPS!

                        -X-

The Past I Am Letting Go

Copyright (c) Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - May 17, 2012
Darwin, Australia

Thirty-nine years or so ago, I saw you for the first time.  It was my first few days in the office.  The moment I turned around and saw you standing right inside the office back door, my heart started silently singing love songs.  The 'tigidong-tigidong' sounds of my heart I could hear right into my brain.

All the while you just stood there and watched me.  I had no idea who you are and least to say your name.  For sometimes it was only you and I.  I couldn't understand why I am so nervy in your presence, never been shy or nervy to others.  You affected me more that I would acknowledge.

From the moment I saw you, I know I fell in love with you and I promised to myself there and then that I will love you for the rest of my life.  And if I can't have a baby with you, I won't have any at all.
Fourteen years I've worked in your office, there were time many a times, when I am working overtime you came into the office and just stood there in SILENCE in front of me, watched me for hours until I finished my work.  We both know that there was a chemistry between us, but none of us was willing to confront who.  We are both too scared of what would be.

I've waited and waited for years and years, then one night I've realized you are too coward to tell me about your feelings or too ashamed to tell because I wasn't belong to your elite social standard.  Whatever your reasons, it is not me to judge you.....it was just not meant to be.

So I decided to marry, to run away from you as fast as I can and as far as I can.  I was happily married to my late husband which I've loved and cared for twenty good years, and still.  He changed my outlook in life.  He thought me that 'LOVE' IS THE ONLY THING THAT CAN MAKE MY WORLD GO ROUND AND ROUND AND ROUND.'  that LOVE is the radius of all in this world.  So in a way not marrying you wasn't a bad thing at all...TRULY MARRYING MY LATE HUSBAND WAS THE BEST THING EVER HAPPENED IN MY LIFE SO FAR.'

No I am not being 'sourgrape' yet it's facts of life.  I tried my hardest all those years to put you aside in my subconscious mind so in order not to jeopardise my love with my husband.  And yes, I've done it without trouble, I've given all my love to my husband with all honesty in me.  

Until, 2007 when my mother died so I have to go home.  In the first notion, I told my husband I don't want to go because he wasn't feeling well, but he insisted that he couldn't forgive himself if he won't let me go home, so for me to say last goodbye to my mother.  So, I went home, and day after my mother's funeral you came to my home.  

The moment I heard you called out my name from outside the gate, my heart jumped and the 'tigadong tigadong.' that was thirty four years ago is as loud or even louder at that very moment.  I wanted to hug and kiss you as you hold my hands but I don't have the courage for I am still married to my husband.  I could fell your hold tightening every seconds that made my hands aches but I say nothing to you because I don't want you to release me from your grip.

We ended opened up our feelings towards each other.  YOU CONFESSED YOU LOVE ME and still loving me.  I've asked 'was the reason you didn't tell me before that you had feelings for me was that I am poor?  Your response 'You know that it is not true, truly I am happy for you because at least you are now in Australia and that you are in a safe place with your husband. Don't worry I will go and visit you in Australia.'

I thought how nice of you to think of me that much.  We talked few times in the phone and we sealed our friendship with a handshake.  We started communicating and then in some stage you started again pushing me away.  You said it would be good for you and me.  Why it is always you have to decide what is good and what is not good for my life.

(the past is dead - dead as a dead fish....that only two flies would love the smell of it)

Last year I saw you I asked 'what are your decisions?'  You responded "what for?   you will leave me again anyway.'  

See, that was the end of my waiting.....you will never have the courage to face reality of life, that is 'TAKING RISK.'  Without taking risk, mean you live your life in fear.  You never had the chance to know what is really to feel to be loved and to love truly without fear.  Maybe you feared that I will spend all your money...or what?  

You should know that we only live once and whatever we had in material value it has no bearing on how the way we go.....we all under control by the LORD, HE alone knows when and where HE will take HIS breath from us.  No money in the world can buy us from death.  Only GOD.

For too long now, you've been holding my life.  And I made my decision that I won't let you take my life with you.  I asked the LORD to give me the strength to face this world on my own...for you are the shadow of my past, the ghost from my past.

But I AM KEEPING THE MEMORY  of my late husband inside my heart forever.

The past I am Letting Go,
and
        THAT IS.........................................................................................YOU!

may you find contentment to the place you're going.!!!!!

Home away from Home

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - May 5, 2012
Darwin, Australia

Home away from Home
Hinigaran town where I came from
Tropical Paradise all around as you can see
The place I love and my heart yearnings everyday.

Home away from Home
The bamboo trees standing proud behind me
Trees and flowers planted and nurtured by dad
For all of us to enjoy the beauty and the serenity.

Home away from Home
Philippines or in Australia
Is not of a question which one
For I am home away from Home

Home away from Home
Yes, I am....
But.....

On the other hand ....I AM DEFINITELY HOME WHERE I BELONG!

Music Of My Heart

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - May 4, 2012
Darwin, Australia

Moment of time and space shared
Between dreams and that of reality
Music of My heart is you and I
Moment like this I am holding you tight.

The coldness of the hot summer wind
The starry night of that cloudy sky in Wet
The sunshine that breaks against the storm
Music of My Heart is you and it's so right.

With all the pain and suffering in life
The best thing is that we conquered them all
Only the one that can break the cycle of pain
We both not giving up our Love without a fight.

MUSIC OF MY HEART IS YOU AND I.

Sydney Opera House October 2011 - Photo: By: Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt

As I Was Waiting

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - April 30, 2012
Darwin, Australia

As I was waiting for the time to come
There were so many things come to mind
The smell of that long black coffee brewing
From that alfresco cafe around the corner.

As I was waiting for the time for you to come
Into this world of madness so called internet dating
Only the tapping of this keyboard keys makes me sane
Waiting is not my forte so I had to make myself calm.


As I was waiting for the time to come
I can hear you calling somewhere in far away land
Would it be a fantasy that will never be realized up to the end
Are we going to see the time together soon, will it ever come.

As I was waiting for the time for you to come
I wondered a lot about you, are you a man of principle
Or you just another man with feet of clay ready to run
Don't run, don't hide let us enjoy the beauty of life's fun.

       There was a time that I worry a lot of things that I don't see.  I am worried about the uncertainty of life and what and if's of life.  Now at fifty-seven years old, with graying hair nothing that makes me more happy is by living my life day by day as simple as I can.  As I often said to friends who always questioning and asking how I live my life on my own.  Almost of them so worried about how I survive with financial burden of being living on a pension.
        My response to them, I am blessed for I had something to live on that some don't even have a place to sleep on or a piece of bread to eat.  I am blessed because I am alive...every morning I see sunshine...Nothing can beat that, for I know God loves me...for HE is still breathing the air of life in me.
        Some worried too much about me, why don't I buy a car.  How in the world like me can afford to buy a car or to maintain either.  I travel free here in Darwin, transport is least of my worry.  I was offered three times from three person a free car....but with all my respect to three I could not bring myself to accept gift that expensive, if they are my relations or boyfriends will maybe I will...but it would still make me to think twice of accepting gifts.
        For me to accept gifts from guys that cost much, it is such a compliment but what would be the ultimate price for me to payback?  Sure they are all thinking good to help me but truly I am just trying to be reasonable here, I don't want to put myself in a very chaotic situation in the end.  Especially they had their own families to consider...I am free...I love my freedom....No responsible to No One....JUST ME!

SO,
AS I WAS WAITING FOR YOU TO COME,
I KNOW WHERE YOU STAND IN MY LIFE
AND NOW I KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH YOU
AS I WAS WAITING FOR YOU TO COME.....

I DECIDED I HAVE TO LET YOU GO FOREVER!

FOR I LOVE MY FREEDOM AND I CAN'T JEOPARDISE YOU HAPPINESS
FOR I AM NOT A 'YES SIR, YES SIR' WOMAN...I HAVE A BRAIN OF MY OWN
AS I WAS WAITING FOR YOU TO COME, I'VE REALISED YOU'RE NOT ME
FOR I AM A PERSON OF MY OWN, NEVER WOULD A SKY KISS THE EARTH!

==============================LOVE===========================

Thank You

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - April 18, 2012
Darwin, Australia

Today - A thousand and eight pageviews on my blog
I am so happy....so happy....so happy
From all over the world readers, thank you so much
Your supports as my readers means so much to me.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart
Take care and cheers to you and your loved ones
May my blog be a little diversion of your daily routine
I thank you once more from the bottom of my heart.

love you all,

Julieta

I KNOW NOTHING

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - April 14, 2012
Darwin, Australia

Why?  I often questioned my dearest mother
Why? The first word I can remember of my childhood
Why? The same questioned I had in my teenage years
Why? Is the same questioned lurking in my seniors-hood.

I know nothing then, I know nothing now and I know nothing...
For all the 'WHY'S and questions I've questioned, not been answer rightly
I know nothing what's beyond the blue horizon or behind the mountain's high
For none among my people and siblings ever did given me the reasons why?

Just like today, I know nothing with all my doubts in my brainless heart
I know nothing how to stop to live life and believing easily even their heartless lies
Yet, I don't blame anyone of my pain and sufferings for I got a brain to choose the best
I know nothing but to love and keep loving life as if the people around me is perfectly perfect!

I know nothing to get upset of, for my heart only knows to love, care, understand and forgives
I know nothing to get cranky of, for my heart only knows how to love and care for you my dear
I know nothing to get angry of, for my heart is big enough to erase all our mistakes and sufferings
I know nothing to get sorry of, for I know we will be together if we are meant to be in the E N D.

I KNOW NOTHING....
..........................BUT ONE THING.................
WE MET..............WE FEEL IN LOVE......................
AND IF WE ARE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER..........
GOD'S FIND THE VERY BEST WAY FOR US............

I KNOW NOTHING....ONLY GOD KNOWS!!!!

Internet Friends or Foe?

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - April 8, 2012
Darwin, Australia

Internet Friends or Foe?
I often questioned
Every time I came across with someone new
Asking to be my friend in the beginning
............and...........of course.......I became
their friends...........but ..................... it often
ended into a friendship of shameful lies.........
Broken promises that breaks the heart of mine!

Internet Friends should be genuine like in real
For chatting and sharing of feelings by electronic keys
Is of no difference when it is said in person.....for .........
Internet is our electronic feelings of communications!

My body you can't touch but my soul speaks to you
So as you...the typing of our feelings by internet chatting
Is the modern way of life of loving without seeing...I called it 'STYLE.'
I know now if that man called you many sweet words of nothing.....

JUST BEWARE.....HE IS FOR SURE PLAYING GAMES!

INTERNET FRIENDS OR FOE?  IT IS UP TO YOU!

Thousand and One Stitches

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - April 1, 2012
Darwin, Australia

A stitch is a beginning of thousand and one
It makes me at peace with the world and with myself
A stitch is a beginning of thousand and many
It makes my mind so at peace with world around me.

Thousand and One Stitches quilt is my internet mapping
The interlocking of stitches by sewing like laptop clicking
One click you've seen me and we became friends talking
Sharing the facts of life in this modern world of internet dating.

Thousand and One Stitches the distance between us so far
But distance is not a problem if two hearts beats the same
In the moment of time, NOW nothing is impossible by WEB
Or even with mobile/cell phones is out there to give us a hand.

Thousand and One Stitches or a stitch is of not consequence
For the two must met in the end....a stitch and a thousand and one
Like internet dating it needs two person to have it going with sense
For you and me will be gathering the goodness of internet domain.

You started a stitch so you have to keep on going and going to the end
So you and I be journeying together from the a stitch, two stitches and....
Up into the middle of many stitches, and keep on stitching by our hands

And I hope the Thousand and One Stitches will complete our hearts together!

You

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - March 29, 2012
Darwin, Australia

You are a friend that understand my ways
I often wonder what would my life be
If there is no love between you and me
You are a friend in me now and always...

You may wonder too as days spinning and moving
Would our relationship be forever and no ending
But we both know not one can tell about the end
You and me knows true friendship never end.....

You and I will always be part of each other heart's
Even in days misunderstanding between our hearts
You and I will always come together once more
You and I will always be friends forevermore....

---------------YOU----------------------------

The Loudness of Silence

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - March 26, 2012
Darwin, Australia


The Loudness of Silence
In the night as I wait for you, makes me insane
Wind whispering against my ears....your name
Oh! How I wish you are here to take my pain!




The Loudness of Silence
Laughter of no existence
Right here where I am standing
Wondering when are you coming!


The Loudness of Silence
The darkness outside so frightening
You said you love me, but what's the use
For the distance between us makes me confuse!


The Loudness of Silence
All I can do is always hold you in my heart
For nothing is important to me but your love
So no matter what always remember....I DO LOVE YOU SO,


THE LOUDNESS OF SILENCE OF MY HEART IS MY WITNESS
FOR YOUR NAME IS FOREVER ETCHED IN MY HEART, 
DON'T YOU EVER DOUBT MY LOVE
THE LOUDNESS OF SILENCE OF MY HEART IS MY WITNESS!

taken at 'THE ROCKS'  SYDNEY HARBOUR -AUSTRALIA - Museum of Contemporary Arts...Sept. 2011.

Wrong of the Beginning

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - March 20, 2012

Darwin, Australia

When he asked me to come and live with him for thirty days I thought that was a perfect beginning.  But obviously it has some downfalls that I had to face sooner or later from that very beginning.

He picked me up with a broken heart- he helped me mended it by his love, care, kindness and thoughtfulness that I cannot imagine a man like him can possess.  It was a thirty days of happy living easy go lucky in a very nice place....the waves from the ocean were like classical music to my ears....the beauty of the starry night sky above the nightcliff seashore....the storms that hammered the cliffs day and night for days....as I sit on the bench near the nightcliff swimming pool...waves hammering hard against the rock...salty seawater sprinkles onto my brown-skin face....my red lips savours the saltiness of the seawater and that brings me back to my country of birth Philippines.

His love and everything shown to me I thought was such a perfect combination of who he really as a person, and that there were no other motives other than that he really care for me as a person.

Thousands of words by text messages we shared for the one year time since we've met but 'that is there is to it in my understanding.  Why?  Because since I've left his place....We text each other every single night...with of course some days we have disagreements and sure a night or two no text message to each other.  But we always come to terms and reconciled and text messages nightly back in our Agenda.  

I didn't tell him that text messages to him cost of hundreds of dollars since I've known him.  I don't want him to know because I don't want him to think that I put money value on our friendship, so I keep it to myself and anyway I love him dearly as my treasured friend.

But last Friday, March 16, 2012...was the last strew that kills the 'shit out of me.' friends or not friends...that is it....I won't hack any 'BS' from anyone.  I am a peace loving person, but I won't let anyone walk over me forever.  I give three strikes....then...BOWLED!

For four nights now I didn't sleep enough for I am thinking hard, reconsidering whether our friendship worth another try and salvaging.  But I came to conclusion right now that it is much better for me to get away from his life....for two people living in a different world would never be one in views!

I wish him well for his future and hope that he will open his eyes wide and see the real world with honesty inside his heart for unless he sees who he is INSIDE he will never understand my views of HOW I LOVE AND CARE FOR HIM, and for him to understand that he is not the rebound friend...he is what he is to me, no comparison to anyone in my life before and now.

Wrong of the Beginning was that he knows too much about my stupidity in loving someone....the love that was unrequited that almost cost my life.  Did he played with my emotions so that he can manipulate me of the thinking that he did care and loved me, but in truth he was laughing his heads off of me being fooled of his scammed kindness. Was it right of me to think......THAT WAS THE WRONG OF THE BEGINNING?

OBVIOUSLY THAT WAS....but I didn't see it because I was in pain!

Wrong of the Beginning I trusted him so much....and I still trust him so...Now this is the WRONG OF THE END.....trusting him still....grrrrrrrrrrrrrr! 

Ghost

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - March 16, 2012

Darwin, Australia

Ghost of the past....each one of us has it. IN the beginning I am to afraid to accept in the time I knew to think back of whom I became and where I came from....My roots is my ghost of the past. 

I have three ghost in my life, the past, in between and the present...the good, the bad and the in between.  I've given them names...the beauty, the ugly and the beugly. (be- from the beauty and ugly -obviously from the ugly itself).

My beauty ghost is the wonderful memories of growing in the Hacienda San Roque, Hinigaran, Negros Occidental, Philippines.  The place where I learned what is unconditional love is and I carried it all to this day. That is were simple living was meant so much to me.  No keeping up with the Jones'S.  That is were I was taught with our parents that ...FOREMOST before I can love, care and respect someone....it has to be from my inner self.  I have to know who I am and what I need in life.We are taught 'needs' not wants.  My mother once said' that love is who I am.'  I cannot afford to love, care and respect someone if I don't have that inside of me.  And as to this day...I know my dear mother was right and so is my dear father!

My ugly ghost of the past ....is that I learned in my younger age how poor of the Philippines live life in a pittance.  I thought slavery is not in existence until I saw it with wide-eyed opened shut many years ago....truly half century ago...what a life that was.  Yet, even we are then poor and living in a hand to mouth existence but there was laughter and joy in our hearts for LOVE IS IN OUR HEARTS.  

Now my old Hacienda were I used to longed and yearned for is not there anymore.  I will never hear again the music of dried golden leaves of summer of sugarcane fields across the valley just in front of our old family home.  Now it is all cemented houses erected in lieu of sugarcane plantations.  People are more in hardship that 50 years ago.  How sad!  The closeness of Hacienda's people are now disappearing...  

The beugly ghost ....it is just of what is I believe to be in between...so far I am not sure....I need to look back once more tomorrow....what was then...the in between GHOST!!!!

THAT DAY AND SOMEDAY

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - March 13, 2012
Darwin, Australia

THAT DAY YOU OPENED MY HEART WITH YOUR LOVE AND NOW YOU'VE RIPPED IT APART....

Someday my friend you will be missing me more than anyone in your life.  Someday you will be wishing you didn't let me go.  Someday you my friend, you and I will be strangers once again.

Someday will help me to forget you...for I know in my heart you are right when you told me 'you love and care for me so much but I deserve better than you.'  In a way how that someday be that right when none of us human race knows whether that someday will ever be coming.

Someday, is just another brain-wish but deep down in my heart...it is just another blind thinking.  Someday brings a lot of complications that hard for me to comprehend to find the right reasons, but I can see any sight of any hope that You and I will become 'SOMEDAY.'

Yes, SOMEDAY....IS ANOTHER RAINBOW IN THE SKY...the colours mesmerised me each time that beautify the blue sky....

I wish that SOMEDAY will heal my heart that you've awaken into loving and then only for you to ripped it apart without mercy.  You talked to me when I am on my own but when I am with friends you pretended well that you don't care about me.  Why?  

Remember -  we sealed our friendship with handshakes...not only once but many a time....

SOMEDAY, both of us will see reasons where we went wrong!

THAT DAY YOU'VE OPENED MY HEART WITH YOUR LOVE AND NOW YOU'VE RIPPED IT APART AND SOMEDAY WE WILL BE STRANGERS AGAIN!!!!

BUT I WILL FOREVER LOVING YOU MY DEAR FRIEND!

LOVE

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - March 9, 2012
Darwin, Australia

LOVE IS AS WONDERFUL AS LIFE.  Love exist when there is LIFE.  Life is love's driven.  For without love, life is no living at all.  This two elements for me cannot live without the other.

As we lives on, love grows on.  As we all know, there are many would argue with me...that living doesn't need love.  But for me living is not living unless there is love.  Life without love is only existing not living.

Often when I am on my own like at this very moment...I think of all my family back home....It's our love that holds and binds us together even how far the distance between us.  How true is one of an old adage says 'HOME IS WHERE YOUR HEART IS.'

The love within each other's heart is the best and most powerful pain reliever of all.  Our heart aches for the love of our family and friends...the old friends from our past...but the friendship never grow old because LOVE IS CONSTANT.  

Yes, love is keep on recharging, it never ceases.  Even in time of disagreement or divorces...still that love is still there...under the camouflage of hatred and despising each other but truly love still lives on.

Base on my experiences....loving is my only way of living and will always will.  But, I am no angel.  I can be a cranky one too...when needed.  Beware!

Beware!  When I am smiling during disagreement....it means I am hitting the roof!  When I am laughing, you better run as fast as you can.... I am dangerous....red light!

After the storm....I can be as calm as a baby sleeping on the cot.....LOVE IS MY WAY OF LIVING!

LOVING, LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST NO MATTER WHAT.....

LOVE (^)

'''''''''''''''''''''               

Fifty-Seven

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - March 5, 2012

    Darwin, Australia

Fifty-Seven.....

the number of this blog...and fifty-seven years old i am....a special number....At this very moment all I can hear is the rattling sound of my old air-con...I hope his won't end yet! Still hot in Darwin.  Another month maybe it would be great...who knows.  One friend today mentioned that it would be great if the end of March come soon so we don't have this hot weather...as I've told her we never know...at the rate of this weather change...we can't be sure of anything especially when it comes to weather here in Darwin.

Today was raining steadily and was a bit cool at the Casuarina Shopping Square...since then, angels in the sky been crying on and off....lightning and thunder was of no existence.  To my heart delight.

In other part of Australia they're having fair share of weather chaos...flooding and more flooding...my heart goes to all the people down where the flooding.  So hard to comprehend how nature works, we can't win over nature so all we can do is to live with it and get back to normal as fast as we can so to live life again.

For many years now, I learned to live what I can afford and what I have in front of me...I stopped wishing for all those big things of those material things that I used to wished for when I was young.  Since I got married I forget all those ambition to accumulate and hoards things that are not important in life.  For the reason that whatever materials we possessed when nature comes...it goes to nothing...OUR LIFE IS WORTH MOST TAKING CARE OF.

My late husband 'Charles Richard Moffatt' was my mentor and I've learned so many things about true happiness by his standard.  What best I've realized that TRUE LOVE DOES EXIST....

FIFTY-SEVEN and going.....I am glad I married a man forty-years older than me.....because here I am at FIFTY-SEVEN and still hanging on to his good memories....

FIFTY-SEVEN - number of this BLOG IS FOR YOU MY DEAR CHARLES!!!!!

Time

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - March 2, 2012
Darwin, Australia

Time is my teacher.  Time is my healer.  Time is my companion every second of every day of my life.  Time that  is what I have in this earth.  Time is the mean reason why I am alive.  Because Time I was born..the LORD, given me the most important of all in this space I am occupying at this very moment.  TIME IS THE REASON WHY I AM BORN.

Time I have I wanted to share to all of you, for when my time ended...we will become strangers...the beginning of time before you've knew me...Time is the vital reason why we became friends...Time is the reason why I was born to my parents and to my families...TIME I always value most is being with you all.

Time passes by were gone forever....Present Time is all we've got.  Never forget to see the beauty of each and every member of our family and friends.  They are like TIME...

The long hands of time is how we spend our time with our families and the short hands of time that is how we share our everything thinking and ways, our communications and understanding the depths of being a part of our family and community...TIME can be the judge of what we really are in the END OF TIME.

SO, THE REASON WHY I RESPECT THE TIME....ONLY MY LORD KNOWS WHEN IS MY TIME!!!!

I LOVE YOU ALL...   

JUST AN OPINION

(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - February 27, 2012
Darwin, Australia

It was interesting to watched and kept on listening all about the bickering of two important people in our political domain.  They are both have their on rights and talents to be there we they are before this and that about One Party with too many leaders...two is too many...that is all the number the political party had to had to break their own goal and ambitions to make our country Australia great at all times.

But, as we all know ...the greed for power is more than a cancer in itself.  Once greed for power is on the line, the party will divide regardless of the cost.  The majority of us people who voted for the person we thought was the right person to lead our country for betterment was betrayed....but what is new in politics....it is happening all over the world...betrayal is the name of the game...as I've said greed for power.

I thought after today's election of Labour leader done, everyone will be shutting their mouth and leave it to the winners to start running the government without any more bickering and all which is so unhealthy for the country and each people.

Yes, I was wrong for tonight I watched the Q & A (Questions and Answers) ABC TV station...and everyone still talking who and whom and which and what about anything to what happened between the Labour Party Leadership. Ms. Gillard wins, let her have peace of mind so she can move on better, leave her alone stop feeding undesirable words against personality in other words, stop personal attack on her now.

While for Mr. Rudd, let it be.  He had his fair share too.  So let him be.  He was the elected one, but lost somewhere along the way.  As I've said nothing new to all of us about politics here in our country it happened before and of course it is a sin for me and any of us to believe that 'IT WON'T HAPPEN AGAIN.' only in politics 'lightning strike twice.' and or history repeat itself.

Politics is like War.....they both kill.  War and Politics goes hand in hand.  One can argue with me but it is the truth...in my views.  All wars happened and will be happening again because of Politics.

Politics kills the integrity of anyone who will and would go against the preferred leader of any party.  Both WWI and WW2 and likewise that is now happening in other part of the world is because of politics....It is so sad because we as the majority has no power to stop the war if the politicians/leadership give their commands!

Some member of the panel Australia to try what Americans do, in electing their leaders.  Why would we follow them?

Philippines as a republic we almost have the same election procedures of America.  By experienced almost always only rich people get into power because of 'MONEY SPEAKS ALL LANGUAGES.'  This style of election can be easily manipulated and as well as can be corrupted.

SO PLEASE ALL ELECTED POLITICIANS OF OUR COUNTRY AUSTRALIA....let the dust of party separation settle down now and BE UNITED FOR THE COMMON CAUSE FOR A UNITED AUSTRALIAN GOVERNMENT THAT WE ALL CAN BE PROUD OF AND BE STILL THE ENVY OF THE WORLD.

I've seen both sides of politics - the east and the west and in my observation and opinion, our GOVERNMENT PROCESS IS OF NOT PERFECT BUT BY GOSH...I AM PROUD TO BE AN AUSTRALIAN AND TO BE A PART OF THIS FAIR COUNTRY.

TO ALL GOVERNMENT OFFICIALS.....WISH YOU ALL THE BEST!

JUST AN OPINION!       

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(c)Julieta Casabuena Facto Moffatt - Feb. 25, 2012
Darwin, Australia

A year ago I've met you in a very funny circumstances. I was so sick and worried about another guy, I thought I am in love with.  You invited me to come and stay with you for a month or until this guy comes back from his seven weeks holiday in Queensland.

The time Darwin was undergoing good scary wind blasting by Cyclone Carlos and at the same time Queensland was undergoing tremendous power by Cyclone Yazi.  All in all the two cities were in such chaos like my heart undergoing such pain that I've never ever realized I can experience in my lifetime.

In a way your invitation to stay with you, I was so amazingly stunned your invitation was done in front of my dear Mr. J you've asked me and also it was heard and witness by my adopted sister L as you write your address and telephone numbers and your birth date on a piece of paper (which I still had it) then you handed it to me.

That trust was spontaneous on my side....arriving home....I decided I will take your offer so I text you and that was that.  You've shacked me for thirty days without any question of my integrity or of who I am.  We both trusted each other, then respect was both sides too.  I am so glad I've accepted your invitation.

It was a month of joy of good happy memories together...and I am so blessed because I've found a friend in you.  We shared time and space.  We laughed with few disagreement about opinions on things but it was so much of an exchanged of views.  I've watched so much movies that 30 days with you any time with my entire 57 years and it was fun.  We almost love the same style of music.  You and I was in such a fun loving moment of life, the time and space were with us.  The time and space and the joy it brings between our hearts....was so priceless (in my views)...

You've said, aside from without having sex....we are like middle aged clacking couple....and we both enjoyed our each other company.  Watching sunset as often as we can outside your porch.  Before then, I.ve forgot what and how beautiful sunset can be.  Thank you for taking me back to beautifulworld of friendship.

Then, as we all know that life has its own road and atlas prepared for us to travel...trials and all we have to face it whether we like it or not.  All your attentions, care and most of all your love you had given me....I felt something growing steadily inside my heart, in the beginning I didn't figure it out....Until, one evening I was feeling some uncomfortable feelings every time you talk about other women.

I've tried to divert my attentions to other things...I put all my energy in writing but in the end I know I am losing my strength....I know then...I am falling in love with you....but I kept it to myself because, I am a woman.....strong and invincible....it would be a shame if I show some weakness and that is letting you know about my feelings.  I did succeed on pretending, telling everyone that you are only a friend!  I am lying then and now!!!!!

I was a broken heart, you came to my rescue, you helped mended my heart....then only for you to rip it apart all over again.  The pain was so such that the first but I assure you I will get back and bounce back without fail to live life again.  I will never let anyone ruin my life's happiness.

I know you had feelings for me, more than just a friend.  You can deny it as you like, but I am a woman too, and naive as you me think I am, I can read signs as much as you do.  For in the first place if you don't have an eyes and feelings for me, you've never invited me in your place.  How can you live with a person, like me not knowing much before.  I have no idea.  I am sure we had the same aspirations in life why we came to met each other.  We are meant to be with each other as friends for life...for now!

 My feelings was cemented it when you said during our dinner "Julieta, I never know how to be happy until you spent time with me.  Wish it wasn't ended.  I was so happy then you go.  D is back.  It sux'!  And then we toast over glass of water "Friends for life."

After I left your place, last March 3, 2011...we had dinner almost every month some months we had two dinners.  And it was such an occasions I always looking forward to.  Your kindness and attentiveness towards me progresses and that led me to believe that you had feelings with me more than just a friend.  And it was cemented when we had our dinner last April 8, 2011...you said "Julieta, I never know how to be happy until you spent time with me, wish it wasn't ended.  I was so happy then you go. D is back, it sux."!

So with that statement mentioned above...I had some questions from all of you my readers...I need help to answers this questions:  Am I misreading his actions that he has feelings for me or not?

Whatever the consequences of my stupid feelings in the end....I am still....I am.